type1grace

@type1grace on Instagram What it's like not being normal , and not what it's like being abnormal . The constant comparisons between you and others, by yourself or by others.   Today has been a little overwhelming. To say the least. Ever had a day where everything just went south from the moment you opened your eyes? Well, today is one of those days. Having GAD (generalized anxiety disorder), a day with an emergency doctor’s appointment ordered by my doctor, is very stressful. I kind of anticipated what he was going to tell me. I knew that he will give me good and bad news. I also knew to which extent the "bad news" would be. It's my body I live in, so I know that it's broken. And unfixable to a certain extend. The day took it's own path. After two hours passed at the doctor's office, I got to my residence where I live. Just taking a break from the stressful day, I took my position on my bed, and watched a YouTube video, just like...

Everyone wants to be normal. But what is normal? Normal people are healthy, happy and has hope. Type 1 diabetics? Not normal at all. As soon as people notice that you are different, bullying and teasing becomes a big reality. I spent 8 nights in hospital after my diagnosis. I only went back to school after a month. I was physically and emotionally tired. I was really happy to be back in my old environment. To see all my friends, to be part of something again and to show my injections off (so typical of a child). My mathematics teacher was the only rude one to me after I returned to school. I remembered how I greeted her and told her that I am back. I went to my chair, and in front of the whole class, she said that she waited for my death certificate. Everyone had a slight laugh and then looked at me. Even now, I feel like shedding a tear about that day. I felt so useless and idiotic. When looking back on those few months, those few words from my mat...